I've been struggling and feeling depressed. When I think about when things began to decline, I might consider October 2019 - work and home were tremendously stressful. The current pandemic has only blurred the lines. I like to keep my personal life separate from work but now it's harder to enjoy my space. It's exacerbated my fears and insecurities; being lonely, a nobody, and not experiencing a life shared with others. I don't have many friends and I don't communicate with them well. I knew this before the pandemic but what if the rests of my life is going to be like this? I can't handle that feeling. It sounds dreadful and heart wrenching.
Doing nothing is easy but you eventually pay for it.
Things I've been trying to get out of this funk:
- fix your self talk - the most important conversations you have are with yourself
- allow myself to be happy - do what makes me happy
- be honest with yourself
- be authentic - take the time to learn who you are
- always be curious
- wanting more for myself
- express your gratitude - make others feel loved
- stop expecting perfection
- consume less and communicate more
- make friends
- Don't settle. Don't be lazy. Do something.
- don't be left behind - don't waste your time - plan of action
- the more you do it the easier it gets
- push yourself - find out when you'll quit and what are your shortcomings
- reality won't lie to you - you lie to yourself
Passages from The Alchemist by Paulo Coelho:
"When each day is the same as the next, it's because people fail to recognize the good things that happen in their lives every day that the sun rises."
"But he was able to understand one thing: making a decision was only the beginning of things. When someone makes a decision, he is really diving into a strong current that will carry him to places he had never dreamed of when he first made the decision."
"It's the possibility of having a dream come true that makes life interesting."
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